I really feel all of this. I used to run a community space (a discord server, which granted, went as well as it could have and not too much upset happened. Which I am grateful for given horror stories of other servers...) and it really is a lot on the heart. I'm surprised I was even able to do what I did five years ago when it comes to that. But I learned a lot of valuable things during that time which help me today in navigating spaces online and trying to grasp those feelings of community now and move forward.

But I would never run a discord again, it's just more than I can handle now.