the opposite of buyer's remorse
Jun. 15th, 2023 11:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
serpentinemaligni bought a keyboard :)
i last played 8 years ago! this has been a long road of promising myself i'd get one and play again, but then there were always more pressing things to buy. i finally found a cheap deal on ebay for the model i wanted and went for it.
i missed it a lot. more than i could have imagined. right now there is pleasure even in scales and arpeggios, in just re-accustoming to the instrument. it's fun to try playing favourite songs just by ear even though my coordination is a little out of practice, and ill stumble and lay down the wrong notes or chords. it's still fun carving out the SHAPE of a song even if it needs finer sculpting. it's like getting to know the music even better.
im unlocking memories of sitting in empty practice rooms noodling around and trying to play favourite songs. i missed that but i also forgot that was an experience i had until I sat down at my own keyboard and went right back to it.
i think most of all, though, it's the feeling of having an instrument i paid for myself. being a poor kid who did music was weird because rich people funding musical instrument/tuition grants will quite literally make you sing for your supper. you get roped into absolutely everything. which meant it never felt like My hobby or passion, it was just like. a Job, a rat race, but one i did as a child. i don't regret doing the classical training, it means i always have the possibility of that dexterity again and there's nothing I feel like I couldn't learn, but i regret that i never learnt enough music that brought me joy.
gonna try to rectify that now.
i last played 8 years ago! this has been a long road of promising myself i'd get one and play again, but then there were always more pressing things to buy. i finally found a cheap deal on ebay for the model i wanted and went for it.
i missed it a lot. more than i could have imagined. right now there is pleasure even in scales and arpeggios, in just re-accustoming to the instrument. it's fun to try playing favourite songs just by ear even though my coordination is a little out of practice, and ill stumble and lay down the wrong notes or chords. it's still fun carving out the SHAPE of a song even if it needs finer sculpting. it's like getting to know the music even better.
im unlocking memories of sitting in empty practice rooms noodling around and trying to play favourite songs. i missed that but i also forgot that was an experience i had until I sat down at my own keyboard and went right back to it.
i think most of all, though, it's the feeling of having an instrument i paid for myself. being a poor kid who did music was weird because rich people funding musical instrument/tuition grants will quite literally make you sing for your supper. you get roped into absolutely everything. which meant it never felt like My hobby or passion, it was just like. a Job, a rat race, but one i did as a child. i don't regret doing the classical training, it means i always have the possibility of that dexterity again and there's nothing I feel like I couldn't learn, but i regret that i never learnt enough music that brought me joy.
gonna try to rectify that now.
